Hai all .
I've been patheticly emo-ish these few days .
Actions hurt ppl . Hope you understand .
I just missed those times , really , very much .
A friend , of mine said to me , last yr . This yr gonna
be a btr year for me . I guess , that's gonna be wrong .
My health is failing me . Stressed up with my homeworks .
Qiong qiong , untill up to one day , i might just ... couldn't take
it anymore . Oh ya , haven't bought SS textbook . Oh yah ,
damn , i nearly totally forgotten about fruit day tmr .
Disappointed in some things .
Oh , not forgetting , i bought Justin Bieber's , My World 2.0 .
Awesoommee . Oh yah , fxcker , if you hate me , jolly well .
Don't look at me . I was trying to ... ughhh , forget it , bitch dog face of urs
not needed . Some things just upsets me . But i couldn't like ....
let it affect my emotions . WTH right ? Why was i even born this way ?
Should just born chinese right so that i could like blend in with my friends .
Fuck fuck . I need to accept my fate . Fuck fuck . Today was pissed off
by lots of things . Feel so pek cek . My heart , nearly happened again .
I need space . I need to be calm at all fxcking times . So mad and
angry that that fxcking sickness of mine came back . I didn't
bring any medicine to school now . Every single day , worrying .
Will the shock happen to me again ? Might just broke down ,
if i couldn't take it any longer . Why must torture me this way ?
God , just take me away . I don't wish to suffer this pain . I guess
nobody understands it . Everytime it happens , i feel like fainting ,
feel like surrender-ing my body to god . Tired . I just couldn't wait
for my last heart beat to stop . Stop . Just stop . It's not doing any good .
Why must i suffer this way ? FATE . SO TIREDDDD !!!!! Stressed
with tuition homeworks . So stressed . I only hoped kj can understand me ....
I feel like giving up , i really do ....... I couldn't take it doing homeworks
any more !
Emotionally , Mentally , Physically ...... drained .
Nothing works now . Nobody could help . God bless me .