SICKENING !!!!!!!!!!!!
PHARK OFF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tired & Weak .
Sometimes , i want to know why .
But i couldn't find the answer to my question .
I just don't know how to even start with .
Is it because of me ?
I wonder .
Anyway , my neck is still hurting .
Feel like crying T.T
*sighs* Tired Tired .
I don't understand why you can , and when
it's time for us you can't . I don't understand
what's fucking wrong with you .
This situation is so fucked up.
I don't know , when it comes to us .
It's always a NO . Fine then ,
seeing that face . When , seen by someone
else , it changed . Just don't understand why .
Did i just lose out respect from you ?
I really don't get it . I don't understand .
Btw , i'm not thinking negative . I just
don't understand this hurtful fact that i need go
through this fucking life and see the same thing all
over again when i do no even noe whats wrong !!
TELL MEEEE !!!!!
ANGRRRYY LAHH !! *cries*

A BIG SHOUT OUT TO BOYS OVER FLOWERS FANS !
I HAVE PICTURES OF KIM BUM , ONE OF THE MEMBER'S OF THE BOYS OVER FLOWERS . I GOT POSTERS , AND SO ON . I WILL POST THE PICTURES MOST LIKELY BY TMR . I HAVE STICKERS , EZ-LINK CARD STICKERS , PICTURES & MORE PICTURES . HAHAS ! HOPE YOU BUY FROM ME !


Hellooo .
Today , i nearly went home .
Haiis , the "sudden attack" came again .
This time , i felt like crying . Nearly cried .
Just feel like dying , at that point of time .
I nearly faint , everything sort of blurred .
Lay yan wanted bring me down , couldn't
even walk , worried i might , just faint ._.
Ate the medicine , doesn't seemed to work .
Haiis . Watch "Percy Jackson The Lightning Thief" .
V.nice :)
Saw a watch . ooo .
As i walked the usual path , on the way home ,
the wind blows so gently , somehow , that few seconds
made me feel like i was free , leaves falling from the
trees , nice breeze . Felt like flying , free from
all the pain , on earth . But , as i think back ,
the misery is not over yet .
\
i dnt think there's happiness in this world ,
i dnt think there is , when no laughter
is shared , joy , sadness . All i can think
of is NONE OF THIS EXIST .
Try to brainwashed myself , i
must live life happily . Anything may
happen , but sometimes , u can't hold
back like that . Gotta pour it out .
Trying to cope , my very best .
Only if miracle do exist ,
how different can life be .
Even how little that miracle is ,
i'll believe that "miracle" , this word ,
do exist in life .

lahkuda kutid üksi. nii väsinud on see elu ja juhtub.

So many things to do , so little time .
TO JOVINA , BAKA :
Erm , i also got things to do like you .
But haven't include my tuition homew ,
so im going thru the same thing as you okay !?
Today was so-so . 2.4 run , halfway crying .
Then f&n was like hmm .
So stress right now .
.
ärritunud inimesed. Meetmed, mida nad teevad, nad kunagi arvan,
et see võib olla kahjulik teistele.
Nad lihtsalt ei mõtlemata oma loll kuradi aju.
Oh yah, lihtsalt ei mõista üritused sel nädalal.
Mõnikord ma ei tea, kas see, et minu?
Ma põhjus? Äkki ma peaks lahkuma kutid üksi.
Sõprus on nii palju parem ilma minuta. Õigus?

Hello .
Looked thru my posts . laughs .
v. emo ._.
When can i enjoy myself to the fullest !
haiis ! Still thinking , whether or nt to
do F&N coursework . i shouldn't
regret what i've done . i should not .
pls god , i pray to you , that i'll take the right
path. lead me to the correct path . all i need
is ur guidance towards my journey of life .
im blessed to have such wonderful friends .
i don't want to let anyone down . just afraid
i might . a reality so hard for me to face for
the rest of my life . pls lead me to the correct
path , dear god , i pray to you . all the energy
i have left in my body . give me the
strength to overcome , the mind to carry on ,
the way that i suppose to be . !
i just cnt wait , for the day , we get back
our results . awaiting for that day to come .
withlove-,

THANKS DEAR FRIENDS ,
I JUST LOVE YOU GUYS .

failed in alot of things .
Idk , how will i survive ?
God , take my soul away .

Memories of u ,
kept tight in
my heart .
:'(

Headache ,
didn't sleep well .
Cry too much .
What's life .
I dnt understand .

Why must love exist ?
Explain to me why :'(

Happy for you .
How could i moved on with life .
Tell me how .
Crying in silence every
single night , waiting
for you , to be back .
waited since 291109 .
Saranghaeyo ; 자기야, 제발 내게 다시 돌아와.
당신이보고 싶습니다.
내가 여기 당신이 필요합니다.
매 순간 내게 왔어.
내 이야기를 듣고. 내가 당신의 사랑이 필요합니다.

Heartbreaking .
Crying myself to sleep.
Suicide , best option.

Hai all .
Gna be very busy for tonight .
Got to finish my Task Analysis , Overall Plan ,
Maths O'lvl bk , Revise Chem , Study Physics ._. (so dead) .
Today i gt back maths test ! WOOTS O_O
i got 35/40 lehhhhhhh :X Cnt imagine :}
Thnks sumbae , i finally overcome my weak
chapter 2 ! Alright , then gt back physics test .
I knew i failed it alr . i got 6/25 :{
Got back chem , 16/20 :}
Haven't get back mly focus test ! Rawwwrs !
K la , i busy now . Bai :D
.
-it doesn't even matter now .
only matters that i love you .
come back will you ? dnt leave
me . i miss you . you promised ,
but till now , i didn't heard
anything abt you . quickly ,
come back love . waiting fr your
return . Cm ♥ , i'll love you always.



I've got lotts of things/homeworks to be done by saturday of course !!! I must
complete it ! So monday and tuesday can rest :} How cooooool is tat :D:D
Just now maths focus test . I think i can overcome my Chapter 2 ! *prays hard*
Hope i pass . Cnt let sumbae down ; cos i used up her time to teach me maths !
Thnks SUMBAE ! And babe ; dnt worries ; won't so heng derh 16 marks ! OMG O_O LOL .
Kays ; outing tmr cnt forget ! Tatas !! :}}}}} ♥

PEOPLE CHANGE ; i didn't forget too . Never did i .

cry to sleep :'{

Tmr test ; maths hw havent do ; dnt noe .
I gave up . I need serious help :'{

Hai all . i've broke my promise . I was sick ytd .
Sudden attack again :{ Haiis . Quite tiring having
this sudden happenings . I went to cut my hair with
babe ♥ ytd . Kayleigh & Roxanne and me went to tiff
hse ; but roxanne played com ; kay taught me some maths .
Thanks Kayleigh ♥ . Roxanne after play com sleep -.-
I was really afraid ytd . I wanna live life like every other
people . I hope that this isn't happening bcos of my emotional
stress the last 2 years 9 months ago . I gave up love . Heart died ;l
Never did i blame you ; ily ; was history . The doctor says i shouldn't
stress to much ; shouldn't make myself go hungry ; shouldn't laugh
to much ; shouldn't surf the net too late ; shouldn't tired myself ;
shouldn't do exercise so much ; he gave me 2 weeks MC for p.e ;
i shouldn't drink anything else ; except plain water ; i shouldn't eat
things that he mentioned to me ; i shouldn't broad over the
matter too much ; he ask me to not worry . I'm trying my
best . It's affecting me a little . Can't concentrate during tuition
just now . Kj ; like pek cek . I just wanna cry .................
................... ... ............ i didn't want it to be like tis . Haiis .
I cnt be sad ; doctor says i shouldn't be emotionally stress .
I'm trying . I can't ; i need to pour out my sadness :'{ .....
..................................................... ....
to my uncle ; r.i.p ; may god bless you ; he loves you more
than us .
...... ............ ...............
i cnt sleep too late ..
muchloves - ;
.
i wanna wake up and be like everyone else ; nobody's perfect .
i must be strong ; ♥ .


a proper update tmr ; i promise ;D



Hai all .
Proper update tmr kaykays ? :}
Tired ; wna sleep . Done printing f&n
coursework ! WOOTS :} Tatas all !
Tmr going swimming luhs !
♥ ; how i wish , you saw-ed how
beautiful i am on the inside .
Haiis .